No, you can’t always get what you want. But if you try sometime, you just might find you get what you need.
This was a good week. I stayed busy with work & mindful of new limitations…maybe stretched myself here & there to have a LITTLE fun.
Now, if you don’t know about Anthro I urge you to visit at once! It’s the most beautiful, boho chic, fragrant retail experience you will ever have…But be mindful, the prices are not exactly “budget friendly.” I can only afford it when there’s a sale & THAT is even a splurge.
After getting an email stating the sale items were ON SALE, how could I resist? So, I crutched my way through the doors to take a look…”Holly!” I greeted the girls, announced I was there for the discounts & because I’m a frequent-anthro-flyer, they jump – grabbing clothes from all corners, picking stylish tops & escorting me into a fitting room as they do the leg work.
That little treat was a nice to start my week back to reality. Those girls’ hearts, understanding & help was exactly what I needed.
I decided work through the holiday (didn’t want to drain the PTO too fast) & hung out with the RNs, techs & patients who had to be there too. It was a good day. I had some quiet & was able to catch up from time off.
Later, I headed over to Gene & Donya’s for a small cook-out & OMG, those baked beans were divine. I EVEN got to see my Memaw, Papaw & Fancy-girl! My sisters were out, which would have disappointed me, but it was nice to be the only “kid” there, getting all the love & attention…my heart needed that.
Every summer the Fort Worth Symphony holds concerts in the Botanic Gardens…& Friday was the final one. So we made our way to the VIP-D section (very important persons with disabilities) & Eddy got to work – laying out our blanket, removing my shoes & braces to make me as comfortable as possible – & I must say, this man is incredible. He steps into the weak places of my life without hesitation & God knows that’s EXACTLY what I need.
It’s funny this week ended listening to rock n roll, it isn’t exactly my thing, but little did I know the lesson that was coming my way… one I learn often…
You can’t always get what you want
As I listened to the chorus, I thought, “huh, fitting.” These last couple of weeks haven’t exactly been what I wanted. In fact, my disability has never been what I wanted.
It’s a struggle. It’s an inconvenience, even. It keeps me from accomplishing both daily & lifelong goals. It limits me in being the girl I want to be & doing the things I want to do. It is NOT what I want.
But it may be just what I need
It is the driving force to my deep, relentless dependency on God & those He has given to love me… & without it continually humbling my spirit, who knows what kind of girl I would be.
So I thank God for not giving me what I want, but what I need.