Hello my sweet friends! I’m alive … as I’m sure you’ve seen on my social media feeds. We have been running like MAD since the last time I blogged. Funny, the doctor told me to slow down & what do I do? Speed up of course. 😉 The last time we talked, I really needed to lighten the mood … not for the sake of the blog, but honestly for the sake of my own health. After hearing my blood pressure is trending up, I just felt … tired. And I don’t mean physically tired, I mean completely, deeply, desperately tired. Tired of trying, tired of failing, tired of everything to be perfectly honest. So instead of giving into the depression that was coming for me, I threw myself into hobbies that distract the frustrated thoughts, & continued on.
I also flew to Miami to hang out and help my husband … so that was fun too. I always love being with him, in “his” element – it’s really fun to meet new cake friends & cultivate friendships that have begun, my heart needed that last month. And let’s be honest, how can anyone be blue in Miami?
So not much has changed around here. I’m still going to monthly doctor appointments, still hearing the same lecture on my health & still paddling to keep my head above the ocean that is life … & while those things can all be very trying, they can also be a continued blessing.
In Church last week we sang “It is Well” by Kristene DiMarco. This rapidly became my favorite song the minute I heard it on my Pandora a few months ago. The words are simple & incredibly heavy at the same time. We were at a new Church, seated on the 2nd row & as soon as the music began, I lifted my hand to heaven. I knew the Lord was reaching down to me & I reached back … literally. I wanted His presence so desperately. I needed Him to let me know He’s here, He sees what’s happening & He does have a plan in all of this. After the song ended, the service ended too & as people came up to greet Edward & I – I frantically wiped back the tears, trying to not look like a bumbling idiot.
The Pastor came by as well, & I said to him – “Please excuse my watery eyes … God’s faithfulness got me today.” He said, “Good.”
Funny. Simple words, simple thoughts lead to a heartfelt, deep impact. The rest of the day I sang over & over,
“Through it all. Through it all, my eyes are on You. Through it all. Through it all, it is well.”
For things to be “well” in life, we must run to the unending fountain. That’s where things are well. The world may look at me & think, “That poor girl is not well.” And you know what? They’re right. By THIS world’s standards, anyway.
But there’s another place, another being that looks at me & says, “I make you well.” And He does. He has. He always will.
While the pain seems to increase with each day I’m living in this world, I know deep down into my spirit there is another place that is using this disability, to make me well. Your struggles don’t define you … & they shouldn’t control you either. The Lord tells you who you are, He is the Great Shepherd that will lead you on.
So I will tell you, things are well. They aren’t perfect, they continue to be very difficult … so many parts of the “things” are actually hell … but I, Holly Frys, am well. Thanks to Jesus.
On a lighter note, I have decided to take the plunge & use this blog to have some fun. Funny enough, decorating & building a home is yet another thing God is using to sanctify & teach me. I don’t have children & probably never well … so I have to steward those things the Lord has chosen to give me. And I hate to say this (well, actually I don’t) but my home is pretty darn cute!
My Memaw has done interior design for as long as I can remember & I’m starting to believe I landed her little talent too! I always had my apartment looking cute, but I feel like my talents have really shined through in this house! I am loving every minute of it & I think I’ll go ahead & write about it, too. 😉
My first #DIY (sorta) blog will be up soon! I started working on it today. I promise I will not inundate you with posts ALL the time, but I do pray I can be consistent in this. As a side note (& prayer request) I’m hoping something could come of this little endeavor. I CERTAINLY do NOT expect to be Fixer Upper or anywhere near it … but… blogging would be a much better “job” for me, as my poor little body breaks down a little more every day. I run with the “big dogs” in the transplant world … & we are the fastest transplant program in the nation!
Don’t get me wrong, I LOVE what I do. Helping people & watching them get their life back, there is no better feeling in the world!!! I’m just thinking about the future & exactly how long I can do it.
Writing is my freedom. It’s something I can do well & easily. It doesn’t require crutches, braces or obscene amounts of physical effort just to get from point A to point B. And aside from faith & loving my husband … writing is my biggest passion.
So please, keep me in your prayers. Pray that I follow the Lord wherever He leads me. And please pray for continued strength, as I carry this cross onward.
All my heart, to all of you …
Sincerely, Holly xoxo